United States of Mind
Sunday, 8 February 2026
Eternity follows me everywhere
Anyways, this week I listened to bands that about 30 or so years ago were quite important to me. All of them had a run of albums/EPs that were just magical around that time. Some of these bands I sort of kept up with, others not so much.
Dramatis personae :
Day 33 - Tiamat - 'The Scarred People'
I hadn’t listened to a Tiamat record since god knows when. I did know a song off of this - they over Lana Del Rey’s ‘Born to got’, and to be fair - here and there I can see the influence she may have had when they wrote this album. This album is gothic, though, very Sisters Of Mercy gothic, could hardly tell it was Johan Edlund singing. It’s a far cry from the proggy masterpieces from the 90’s, like ‘Wildhoney’ and ‘A Deeper Kind of Slumber’.
A couple of good songs here, maybe. 6/10
Day 34 - Samael - 'Hegemony'
Terrible. I love Samael - especially old Samael, but this was embarassing. HOW DO YOU GO FROM ‘I LOVE SATAN’ TO ‘PROBLEMS AREN'T SOLVED WITH A GUN’? 5/10
Day 35 - Moonspell - ‘1755'
Loved Moonspell when they appeared, but somewhere in the late 90’s, I stopped caring. Their 2003 ‘Antidote’ album brought me back in, but then I stopped caring again. And though now and then I dip into a few songs from their catalogue, there’s a bevy of their records I never listened to. This one was one of them. And I almost bought it, even. Pretty good, it gets 8/10
Day 36 - Cradle of Filth - 'The Screaming Of The Valkyries'
And no band was more important to me back then than Cradle of Filth. I swear they could do no wrong. Then they did and I got bored. Every now and again I decide to listen to a random track and I’m not impressed. And that sums up this album… not terrible, just not great. Dani's voice has lost its power, and it seems like I'd heard these songs somewhere before. 7/10, and I'm being generous
Day 37 - Paradise Lost - ‘Ascension’
Also big for me were these lads. There’s so much love from me for these guys, but the last album I listened to was ‘Symbol of Life’, which I adore. Again, dip in here and there, sometimes like, sometimes don’t. This one? Really fucking good. So good I listened to it three times in a row. 9.5/10
Day 38 - My Dying Bride ‘A Mortal Binding’
A band I can really, really like, or really, really dislike. So I rarely bother with them. And this one… oof. Starts off really bad, first song is one of the worst songs I've ever heard. Gets better, though. Good enough to get 7/10
Day 39 - Amorphis - ‘Borderland’
A good surprise, here. And funny, the last album I’d heard from them was 1996’s ‘Elegy’, which I didn’t really like except for a couple of songs. Since then until now I’ve only listened to one of their songs, a song I actually listened to by accident, and had to do a double take, because it sounded nothing like the Amorphis I knew. And neither do they now, while at the same time remaining familiar? I really enjoyed listening to this. Maybe I’ll check some more of their recent stuff. A good, good 8/10.
Next week will be a much more pleasant experience. I’m going to spend some time with the ladies.
Sunday, 1 February 2026
Who watches over me?
The challenge for this week was to revisit bands that were somewhat important to me many years ago, though some of these I still listen to their old stuff every now and again. How do they hold up? Let’s find out.
Day 26 - Covenant - 'Blinding dark'
Day 27 - VNV Nation - 'Construct'
Day 28 - De/Vision - 'Citybeats'
Day 29 - Suicide Commando - 'Goddestruktor'
Day 30 - [:SITD:] - 'Stunde X'
Day 31 - Seabound - 'Speak in Storms'
Day 32 - Mesh -' Looking Skyward'
Wednesday, 28 January 2026
Maybe someday you’ll look up and, barely conscious, you’ll say to no one ‘isn’t something missing?’
Sunday, 25 January 2026
What was that line you said? Something about how time runs down.
Man, I tell ya, I really do, I don’t know how these weeks just melt away. I always end up feeling like I did nothing, or at least I didn’t do enough, but the truth is that I’m always completely shattered. Hopefully this will be the last of these such weeks, at least for the foreseeable future. The dust begins to settle, the pieces have begun to - somewhat - fall into place, and though I can’t say that things are perfect, much less ideal, I definitely can see some progress. By next month I’ll be able to get into a much different groove, I deem.
Now, as for this week, l finished the whole of the Coheed and Cambria discography, at least when it comes to studio albums.
Day 22 - Coheed and Cambria - ‘Vaxis – Act III: The Father of Make Believe'
Day 23 - Jeniferever - 'Choose a Bright Morning’.
Day 25 - PG.Lost - 'Oscillate'
Sunday, 18 January 2026
My dearest Apollo, I’ll be burning Star IV
I’ve not been finding any time, let alone any will, to write here as often as I would want to, but now, and as the move to the new place finally winds down, and the dust is beginning to settle, I can see some sort of hope that things will get better, sometime soon, somewhere down the line. These first few weeks though, have really run me ragged. Between packing stuff, and then unpacking it, and still put in my work hours, has left me feeling completely drained. Invariably, I turn to my old demons at the end of the day, just so I can unwind and turn off the brain for a few hours. How did that old song go? ‘Problems with the booze, nothing left to lose’.
When I first decided to embark on this challenge, I knew that sooner or later I’d delve into the discography of a certain band - Coheed and Cambria. I’d known of them for at least twenty years or thereabouts, and I’d even had their whole discography - up to a certain point in time - in one of my defunct external hard drives. But I never listened to a single second from one of their songs. Never, ever. But for some reason… the fascination was always there. Most of their records revolve around a si-ci concept created by the band’s leader, Claudio Sanchez. That concept - dubbed ‘The Amory Wars’ - is a multimedia venture that encompasses not only the music itself, but comics as well. And on that respect, I also had a bunch, though not all, of the comics that were published, though I never did read them. So why did it stick with me all these years? And why now? The answer to the first question is a simple and weird one - I was afraid I’d like them. And you may wonder why that would be a bad thing - it’s not necessarily bad, per se, but with me… when I’m really into something, I don’t stop until I have EVERYTHING in my collection. So I resisted going down this particular rabbit hole for all these years. It had to be now - now, when I don’t want anything anymore, when I don’t need to have anything anymore - now it finally makes sense. And that answers question two.But I didn’t start the week with them, no. I had a band in mind, and I wanted to say I’d be revisiting it, but not really - I’ve only known the one song by them.
Day 12 - Psychotic Waltz - 'A Social Grace'
We have to go back many many years, back to the time when music TV channels not only still played music, but they had individual shows for music genres. Way back in the 90’s, if you -wanted to watch a metal video, then it had to be either MTV’s ‘Headbangers Ball’ - which I found too commercial, but still had a pretty decent selection of videos - or VIVA’s ‘Metalla’, hosted by Markus Kavka. It was here that one day I chanced upon a song by this band - Psychotic Waltz - called ‘I Remember’. And for some reason I’ve always thought that this song was about Terminator 2, but I guess I was wrong. Now, I’ve always really liked that song, it even has some neat flute parts, but I never felt the urge to listen to more. And now I did. And I kinda regret it, because it just wasn’t that great. By the time the record finished, it had outstayed its welcome by half an hour. Nah, this is dull, I’m sorry. 3/10
Day 13 - Coheed and Cambria - 'The Second Stage Turbine Blade'
Day 14 - Coheed and Cambria - 'In Keeping Secrets Of Silent Earth : 3'
Day 15 - Coheed and Cambria - 'Good Apollo, I'm Burning Star IV, Volume One: From Fear Through the Eyes of Madness'
Day 16 - Coheed and Cambria - 'Good Apollo, I'm Burning Star IV, Volume Two: No World for Tomorrow'