You didn't see me, I was falling apart, I was a television version of a person with a broken heart

Of course I don't tell myself I don't deserve. Of course I don't. Tell myself, that is.
What I do tell myself is, there are those who deserve more, and so long as they are getting what they deserve, what they truly and richly deserve, then how can I be anything other than happy?
It's not that I don't deserve. Maybe I do, maybe not yet, maybe there's still a lot of atonement ahead.
Maybe. Maybe. Of course, maybe. Of course I don't tell myself I don't deserve.